Friday, November 03, 2006

Struggle

OK so now it's been over a month since my last entry. And if I keep mentioning how long it is since my last entry, this will end up sounding like a transcript from a confessional (Forgive me Father...) but as my only image of that is from TV it's probably inaccurate anyway.

I did at least manage to add the funky ClustrMap in the meantime, and surprisingly enough I have had visitors from 2 other continents! My self-deprecating tendency is to say 'surprisingly I've had visitors at all' but I suppose at least a few people want to know what a Gruntling looks like, and perhaps even how to cook one...

I'm struggling just now - with enthusiasm or rather the lack of. Although literally I suppose I believe that I am still en-theos-ed i.e. still 'in God', my get up and go has got up and went. My sister from NZ was really wise tonight on the teflon - she reminded me that just because we aren't getting direction to do something, the fact that God isn't directing us to stop doing it is often all we need.

I'm also struggling because as usual, I'm trying to do too much - in this case, be a husband, a dad, earn a bit of cash, prepare for a presentation on Monday, write an assignment by Monday, prepare a short sermon for Sunday... Not by might, by power, or by my strength, but only through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.

2 comments:

Ian said...

It sounds as if your get-up-and-go has got lots of outlets - not surprising there is not much left.
As Gordon McDonald says (I think in "Forging a real-world faith"), even when serving God, much of life is routine - housework, office work, driving, waiting, etc.

Anyway, persevere! Will pray for joy and strength for you in all the busy-ness.

Nodrog said...

Thanks. Yes it does have plenty of places to go. Fortunately mid-term intervened (more of a change than a rest) and now I can launch back into term with a bit more perspective.

Incidentally, the presentation got done, the sermon was prepared and delivered and the assignment submitted. Quality levels I am not objective enough to judge but no tomatoes were thrown for the presentation and sermon.